Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Judgemental People

I better continue writing here about my views on judgemental people instead of dayre coz the person i m referring to follows my dayre...oops..im being too obvious i know coz there's only 6 person following my dayre and only one person is like that...
im pretty sure that she wouldnt stalk my blogspot and its not like im going to share this post on fb so it should be fine...
really beh tahan okay..
though she is someone close to me and we are very close but her attitude problem is on the verge of getting on my nerves...

i dont even know why did i even try to explain myself last night coz there's no point...i was just really shocked of what came out of her mouth and mostly hurt by what she said.... she probably didnt mean anything as its her norm by saying these stuff and i got a lot from her edi but it was just not very appealing to my ears...

the first thing that she said that was just plain innappropriate last night was judging people's appearance...
we just sat down and she just suddenly say that my bro's gf is not that pretty jeh...her photos so pretty, she in person not very lor... im like wtf?
we just sat down and we hvnt even started talking let alone the fact that i didnt even ask about my bro gf 's appearance and she just blurted this out out of the blue with my bro and his gf just seated next to me 😑
im like whutttt????? and didnt even bother answering her and went on with other subjects coz i dont want to be involved in such a topic and i dont feel the need to answer such stupid question...answering would only make myself feel retarded LOL like what was your problem woman?
she is pretty and period..do you even have to say such mean things?
she didnt do anything to you leh and i like her a lot!
she is just a young little girl that is my bro gf and my friend..why would you say such thing about someone let alone that she's also somebody that is close to me 😒

i know that she is always judging other people's appearances but really? judging strangers is one thing but really? this is my bro's gf eh... and she didnt even do anything to you 😑
you probably just being urself but really..you didnt have to be so mean 24/7...
you always say that you're being honest and straight forward but this is not honest! this is straight up mean liao!
I am being honest! i dont lie when people ask me stuff but i dont go bombarding other people especially when nobody ask for my opinions..

bombard other ppl's looks oso suan liao..
i was just talking about me not showing my bf my dayre coz i write too much emotions in it and a lot involves him then you apalah! say i give you the feeling that i scared that nobody wants me.....
i literally stopped eating and looked at her blankly for a whole 5 secs coz i was speechless.... where did this even come from..like how?
loving my bf and being insecure about a new relationship shows that i am scared that nobody wants me?
i thought that just shows that i really love him and im afraid of losing him?
i didnt say i want other guys or what eh..i dont even get how did that idea came into your mind...im like whattttttt

and me being me...why did i even bother explaining myself...i should have just shrug it off..coz this is not the first time that she has judged my relationship...
i feel like evn dayre is not safe anymore...
only 6 ppl reading and i still cant write what i feel without being judged..damn sad okay

from saying that i m too serious and i think too much now saying that im desperate? oh my god!
what is wrong with you lady?
what did i do to you to be judged like that...

i wouldnt say that i treat you crazy crazy well but i am always nice to you leh... but walau..woman..i never once not even once say such things to you but why are you saying such mean things to me?

did i even ask what do you think about me and my bf? no right...then why did you have to say mean things about us and my personality..im just a bit histerical when im writing out my feelings but i never once bothered you eh..i was just writing how i feel on dayre only leh...*facepalm*

i dont even want to rant to you coz i know exactly what you're going to say...belittling me and all...
since young ah...even when i get better grades you have to criticize me for being a snob..im like wtf? i didnt even tell you my grades 😑
snob simisai?
okay..ham fung nin qin one i dont say....
but really...
how are you going to make people like you if you r so judgemental even with your close ones?

very hurtful one eh for no reason...
its like what did i do to you?

Thursday, February 5, 2015

Where did time go?

wow...i think this is the longest hiatus i've been? 
I don't think that I've ever skipped a whole month before...
i blame dayre...coz i now update everything there and thus I have nothing to blog about...
shall just write nonsense again as usual since i haven't been traveling =(
I need another trip laaaaaa 
I'm such a brat...just started working only for a few months and i'm already asking for holidays ..bad girl 

chinese new year is like 2 more weeks ahead...gosh...
where did all the time go...
as time flies, i get more scared...
coz that means that the viper challenge is coming...OH NO! 
I m so not prepared for it...
I don't feel fit at all =(
I feel fat =(((((( 
I am always lethargic...
okay..blame my horrendous sleeping habit...
I don't know since when did i started sleeping so late?
I remember during schooling days i used to sleep at 10.30 sharp every night
then even during uni days..i probably sleep latest by 12 i think? 
i don't remember myself sleeping terribly late until year 4 
which i seriously don't think it has something to do with work...
coz I don't normally work late night...
i do my revision early...and i usually saogong from revising around 9-10pm ish..at most 12am 
so it's definitely not because of uni...
so why did I started having this bad habit?
can someone tell me...
I should totally do something about it but then I m not even trying hard enough....
this is soooo bad wei...
sleeping at 1am waking up at 6.30 am == 
can die one leh if this go on...
and 1am is actually already considered the "earlier" time...i often sleep at 2 am ==
which is sooooo bad....doom laaaaa

why am i writing a whole post about my sleeping habit....
I should write a motivation blog post for myself to lose weight! 
gosh...i everyday call myself sei fei por but yet i still eat so much...
mou dak gao edi =( 

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