Judgemental People

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I better continue writing here about my views on judgemental people instead of dayre coz the person i m referring to follows my dayre...oops..im being too obvious i know coz there's only 6 person following my dayre and only one person is like that...
im pretty sure that she wouldnt stalk my blogspot and its not like im going to share this post on fb so it should be fine...
really beh tahan okay..
though she is someone close to me and we are very close but her attitude problem is on the verge of getting on my nerves...

i dont even know why did i even try to explain myself last night coz there's no point...i was just really shocked of what came out of her mouth and mostly hurt by what she said.... she probably didnt mean anything as its her norm by saying these stuff and i got a lot from her edi but it was just not very appealing to my ears...

the first thing that she said that was just plain innappropriate last night was judging people's appearance...
we just sat down and she just suddenly say that my bro's gf is not that pretty jeh...her photos so pretty, she in person not very lor... im like wtf?
we just sat down and we hvnt even started talking let alone the fact that i didnt even ask about my bro gf 's appearance and she just blurted this out out of the blue with my bro and his gf just seated next to me 😑
im like whutttt????? and didnt even bother answering her and went on with other subjects coz i dont want to be involved in such a topic and i dont feel the need to answer such stupid question...answering would only make myself feel retarded LOL like what was your problem woman?
she is pretty and period..do you even have to say such mean things?
she didnt do anything to you leh and i like her a lot!
she is just a young little girl that is my bro gf and my friend..why would you say such thing about someone let alone that she's also somebody that is close to me 😒

i know that she is always judging other people's appearances but really? judging strangers is one thing but really? this is my bro's gf eh... and she didnt even do anything to you 😑
you probably just being urself but really..you didnt have to be so mean 24/7...
you always say that you're being honest and straight forward but this is not honest! this is straight up mean liao!
I am being honest! i dont lie when people ask me stuff but i dont go bombarding other people especially when nobody ask for my opinions..

bombard other ppl's looks oso suan liao..
i was just talking about me not showing my bf my dayre coz i write too much emotions in it and a lot involves him then you apalah! say i give you the feeling that i scared that nobody wants me.....
i literally stopped eating and looked at her blankly for a whole 5 secs coz i was speechless.... where did this even come from..like how?
loving my bf and being insecure about a new relationship shows that i am scared that nobody wants me?
i thought that just shows that i really love him and im afraid of losing him?
i didnt say i want other guys or what eh..i dont even get how did that idea came into your mind...im like whattttttt

and me being me...why did i even bother explaining myself...i should have just shrug it off..coz this is not the first time that she has judged my relationship...
i feel like evn dayre is not safe anymore...
only 6 ppl reading and i still cant write what i feel without being judged..damn sad okay

from saying that i m too serious and i think too much now saying that im desperate? oh my god!
what is wrong with you lady?
what did i do to you to be judged like that...

i wouldnt say that i treat you crazy crazy well but i am always nice to you leh... but walau..woman..i never once not even once say such things to you but why are you saying such mean things to me?

did i even ask what do you think about me and my bf? no right...then why did you have to say mean things about us and my personality..im just a bit histerical when im writing out my feelings but i never once bothered you eh..i was just writing how i feel on dayre only leh...*facepalm*

i dont even want to rant to you coz i know exactly what you're going to say...belittling me and all...
since young ah...even when i get better grades you have to criticize me for being a snob..im like wtf? i didnt even tell you my grades 😑
snob simisai?
okay..ham fung nin qin one i dont say....
but really...
how are you going to make people like you if you r so judgemental even with your close ones?

very hurtful one eh for no reason...
its like what did i do to you?

Where did time go?

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wow...i think this is the longest hiatus i've been? 

I don't think that I've ever skipped a whole month before...

i blame dayre...coz i now update everything there and thus I have nothing to blog about...

shall just write nonsense again as usual since i haven't been traveling =(

I need another trip laaaaaa 

I'm such a brat...just started working only for a few months and i'm already asking for holidays ..bad girl 

chinese new year is like 2 more weeks ahead...gosh...

where did all the time go...

as time flies, i get more scared...

coz that means that the viper challenge is coming...OH NO! 

I m so not prepared for it...

I don't feel fit at all =(

I feel fat =(((((( 

I am always lethargic...

okay..blame my horrendous sleeping habit...

I don't know since when did i started sleeping so late?

I remember during schooling days i used to sleep at 10.30 sharp every night

then even during uni days..i probably sleep latest by 12 i think? 

i don't remember myself sleeping terribly late until year 4 

which i seriously don't think it has something to do with work...

coz I don't normally work late night...

i do my revision early...and i usually saogong from revising around 9-10pm ish..at most 12am 

so it's definitely not because of uni...

so why did I started having this bad habit?

can someone tell me...

I should totally do something about it but then I m not even trying hard enough....

this is soooo bad wei...

sleeping at 1am waking up at 6.30 am == 

can die one leh if this go on...

and 1am is actually already considered the "earlier" time...i often sleep at 2 am ==

which is sooooo bad....doom laaaaa

why am i writing a whole post about my sleeping habit....

I should write a motivation blog post for myself to lose weight! 

gosh...i everyday call myself sei fei por but yet i still eat so much...

mou dak gao edi =( 

2015's Resolutions

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It's the time of the year again to write about our resolutions! 

as usual, it's not about the quantity but actually achieving it

what's the point of writing hundreds of resolutions but achieves none? 

okay.... straight into my resolutions :

1. lose more weight! this is like my yearly resolutions without fail =) hope that i don't have to put this again next year.... 2013 was good but not much improvement in 2014..so 2015 i better lose the pounds!

2. work hard and smart for my career! it used to br about school but now it's finally about work..hopefully i'll get better in my work and get to go to germany for projects hahahaha save up more too!

3. appreciate my love ones more! it still feels a bit surreal having a boyfriend and i  will learn to not only love him more but also to love my family and friends =)

4. be a better person! smile more! be more outgoing and friendlier to people and most importantly be more positive and do not dwell in the past...have more faith in life and learn to have more trust

5. oh! must not forget..pass my DELF exam hahahaha

I think that's all...any longer i don't think i'll be able to do it....so yea.... 5 important ones! 

A Whole New Journey

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Been writing on Dayre more often lately cause it's just much more convenient than writing a full blogpost...

If you've been stalking me (i'm just joking) , you should know that I've recently just started a new job...

starting in a whole new environment again but when you're young you just have to do what you want and what you think you should #YOLO ma! 

it's my 2nd day today and I would say so far so good...

just that I have to wake up an hour earlier and it's much further away from home...

going there in the morning is fine..but coming back == my god! the jam ah....

anyways, hoping for the best and hopefully that I would be able to find passion in this job as I've made this choice to come here and it's my own choice to pursue CAE 

it might be hard but i will try my best to work for it! 

oh! and i'm back to the environment where the majority are guys... school days reminisce 

been slacking a lot lately...getting my ass back to the gym! 

and i really need to lose those fats yo! 

then i realized that I have nothing much to blog about...

will blog after this sat since I will be going on a trip with my company =) 

hopefully it won't get awkward hahahaha 

i don't care! I just want to end it with my selfie hahahah

盐

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话说最近感觉发生很多事又感觉没发生很多事 

太多事还在有待观察中

太多的未知数

希望一切都可以如愿吧

事业和爱情也如此 =D 

祝我好运吧

take everything with a pinch of salt 尤其是感情的事 

很多事情就算sealed the deal也未必是确实的

经验就是这样告诉我的

所以还没结帐之前都不要抱太多希望

时间和相处会证明一切的 

不想再玩爱情游戏了

喜欢就喜欢 不喜欢就不喜欢

manigances récents

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i'm back to blogging after a short hiatus =) 

it's like I'm either blogging about recent travels or just ranting about nonsense 

actually I have nothing much to say...

If you were to ask me last week, I would probably have a lot to say

but now...nahh....一切都是雾水烟花

just go with the flow and if that person really cares, that person will make the effort to stay if not...mampus! 

but lately it has been quite a change for me...

been doing things that I'm not used to and being the kind of person that I'm also very unfamiliar with 

okay la..i'm probably exaggerating a bit but seriously, I do think that I've made significant changes within such a short period, character wise. 

I'm back at the gym again! 

been slacking for over a month and I'm finally slowly getting back on track

though i don't think I can ever be like how I was last year ( 6 days a week, hardcore max ) cannot blame me leh...i was having summer holidays at that time and now i have a full time job...

going to the gym after work is a huge sacrifice lor when i can just go home straight and be a couch potato =P 

at the moment, I think making the effort to hit the gym 3-4 times a week is already a great achievement... better work harder if not nanti really nobody wants hahahaha 

btw, I've just switched my gym membership today =O 

decided to withdraw from Chi and join celeb since I will have company to gym after work and it's still at a tolerable drive from work 

people say changes is good and I do hope that by making some changes in my life it will bring a difference to what's ahead of me =) 

what I can do now is to live for myself and to live like there's no tomorrow =) 

keep loving yourself and try to be a better person from what you were yesterday 

not trying to be philosophical but I realized that lately I have this tendency to talk like that...

omg..is that a sign of aging? i hope it's just I'm turning wiser but not older =P 

just a random pic that I'd never posted before =P 

I'm totally not done

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too much to ramble today...

and obviously I've already wrote a lot on my last post but I still have so much to rant...

and since I'm like crazy free now...which is not exactly the best thing LOL 

just said that lately I just don't like being alone...

I just don't like the feeling of being lonely...

I guess that's why I've been going out much more often than I used to...

I dunno if I've changed or this is just a short phase? 

but I just have too much to say but I don't feel like telling anybody because it's actually really stupid 

too dumb to be telling anybody...

knowing that it wasn't supposed to be serious but the serious bug inside me is just eating me up entirely =( 

no wonder my bro used to tell me that I never learn...

hahahha

I really never learn! 

too many uncertainties! 

I hate uncertainties but that's what life is all about...

being inexperienced sucks =(

it's like I'm always at people's mercy 

I feel like I get controlled by people easily which is so stupid! 

or maybe I'm just emotionally too dry? 

or maybe I'm just trying to rush into things? 

sometimes I don't even know what am I thinking...

knowing that this is just a joke and should never be taken into notice but yet still sort of affected me in some way...

I know that I'll get over it very soon but why do I even have to go through the getting over part when clearly there wasn't even anything to get over for? 

argh...this is stupid...

I think I'll be laughing at this few days later....

ok..I think I'm just having PMS 

just let me rot in my pod 

this is really stupid 

and the stupidest part is that I clearly know that it's stupid yet I still let it get its way...

#winliaolor 

why am I always like that =( 

I don't want to be this weak prick

I should be like a player LOL 

LAST Day before entering the working world

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or maybe just less than 12 hrs...

everybody kept asking how do I feel? 

anxious? excited? mixed? 

I am feeling a bit of everything...

anxious because I'm very unsure of the future

excited because the future is unpredictable 

sounds contradicting but then that's how I feel...

been feeling really demotivated the past week or maybe the past few months 

but hopefully everything will get back on track by tomorrow! 

Must keep staying strong and be the person I want to be! 

went and watch 等一个人，咖啡 yesterday 

I would say besides the characters' names being the same, almost the entire story is different from the original novel 

i wouldn't say the movie was amazing but it was fun to watch 

if you're just looking for laughs and some occasional touching moments, this would be the movie for you

the movie didn't grow on me i guess it's because I liked the novel a lot 

there were much more going on in the novels other than just love 

I feel like Giddens was trying too hard to make the movie funny with all the weird illogical moments that the novel didn't have 

the novel was just simply easier to touch my heart with all the different characters in it 

everybody is entitled to their own opinion right? 

hahahaha... was being a bitch since yesterday 

but then I'm just being honest what.... 

I just don't like hiding my feelings and right now i'm at the raging stage which will then lead to the " i don't give a shit" stage soon, I hope so! 

it's weird that at first you were genuinely really nice and trying to be all forgiving like a saint saying that i wish you all the best and blah blah blah 

but then as time goes by, feelings worn off,  walau! rage comes in and then *poof*

all the vulgarism starts overflowing and you starts talking like a sour bitch 

sorry lah....girls feed on jealousy what 

I am just being brutally honest with a feeling of a girl 

and I do guarantee that most girls are actually like that just that they don't tell hahaha

anyways 

I feel much better after blurting out to other people and feel sorry for them hearing all my nasty thoughts *oops* 

and I do believe that it's just a short stage and will eventually go away 

end of my rant now and I should go get myself emotionally ready for tomorrow hahahah 

毕业典礼之际

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恕我最近都比较喜欢用华语写部落格

因为我的内心大部分的思绪都是用华语来表达的

明天就是我的大学毕业典礼了

保守估计 也应该是我人生中最后一次的毕业典礼了吧 

我也没有要继续深造的打算

时间真的是在飞逝的说

boom一声就四年了

从英国回来也已经是两年前的事了

还记得当初选机械工程的初衷就是因为单纯的喜欢物理

当然我有更喜欢的东西只不过我当时觉得不切实际

本来就是一个比较实际市侩的人 =P 

而为什么喜欢物理 就是因为黄国贤老师 哈哈哈 

还记得去年回循中告诉他我选这科的原因时 他还说我干嘛想不开 TT 

不过现在终于毕业啦～ 

而且9月就要开始工作了 说不怕才怪

每次要换新的环境我都会觉得有点恐怖

希望可以很快就适应社会大学啦

大学这四年

说充实也还好 

交了不少的朋友

也当然还有很多中学朋友还留在我的生活里

真的很感谢这些一直都在我身边的朋友们 =) 

当然还要感谢有机会了了我中学的其中一个愿望 就是二十四节令鼓 哈哈哈

终于在大学的时候有机会学了 

虽然只维持了一年 不过还是很开心很开心

大四的时候 真的没有太多心思花在课外活动上

现在还是有点点遗憾 不过我真心觉得我应该应付不来 没办法一心多用啊 

感觉上很多友谊在大四那年才建立起来 有种相见恨晚的感觉 

不过我相信有心的话 我们一定可以保存这份友谊的 ＝） 

也刚好在结束学生时代之前上了人生重要的一课 

虽然无疾而终 但是还是要谢谢让我成长的人

我会更加坚强 

也学会很多东西不是说你付出多少就会得到多少的 

当然也学会了以后要更加小心 爱自己才是最重要的 

感谢这一路上帮助我的教授们，朋友们，同志们，同窗们 

说不会不舍得是假的 不过天下无不散之筵席

有缘的话 无论天涯海角我们都还是会再见 

我真心地感谢你们 也祝福你们 <3

得空就约我喝茶吧 我一定奉陪 =D  

习惯

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其实习惯是一件很恐怖的事
多喜欢也会有淡的一天
只要下定决心决定放下了 时间就会自然而然地帮忙解决问题
偶尔想起也是在所难免
朋友提起时心还是会揪一下也无可避免
经过一起去过的地方还是会想起当时后的我们
但是我相信 我想念的也只是我们一起的回忆 而不再是你了
因为不值得被想念的人 不该再被想念
不对的人也不需要再留恋
每天早上都对自己说 "乖， 今天别乱想了"
习惯了没有专属的晚安和早安
接受了这些已经是别人的了
谢谢你让我长大了 哪怕只有那么的一点点
至少我觉得我更强大了
虽然这一切真的太荒谬 但就当上了一课
一个不是每个人都会上的课
虽然也很想时光倒流 希望这一切都没发生过
至少就不需要经过那么多难过的时刻
但是我接受 因为这也是成长的过程

其实也习惯回到了一个人的生活
习惯了没有特别的人可以分享当天的喜悦
看到的人事物 学会的新知识

但是我相信前面会有一个真正值得我去珍惜的人还在等我
我终究会遇到的 我相信

乖

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其实已经过了一个月多了

但是到了前天才真正乖乖的作出最果断的决定

其实真的无论有没有另一个女生的出现 我本来就会作出同样的决定

不过真的是因为知道了人家也moved on了 所以才会让我更快的做了这个决定

但是为什么明明是自己的决定 没有人逼的 而且无论如何自己都知道是不可能重来的了

但是还是很难过很难过 

就一直很想哭 

明明就知道做了这个决定 自己才有办法真正好好的做自己 做自己该做的事

但是做了之后 肚子感觉就像被打了一拳而且拳头一直都不离开 然后那天晚上还真的失眠了 

明明真的过了超过一个月了啊 但是为什么还是会哭 

我也很讨厌我自己为什么不生气

生气不是很正常的吗？ 但是为什么就生气不起来

脾气平时那么冲 但是为什么这件事可以那么冷静成熟？ 

如果我生气的话 我会不会比较好过？ 但是就是生气不起来 

就只有不断的揪着 喉头就一直酸酸的

但是明明都是自己的决定啊

就算没有那个女生 本来就不打算回去的不是吗？ 但是为什么还是会痛？ 

为什么想着想着还是会哭？ 

不是说祝福了吗？ 

还是我难过的是那么短暂的东西把友谊都搞砸了？ 

还是我难过的是为什么他可以那么快就进入下一段恋情了？ 

我自己也不知道我在难过什么

还是我难过的是为什么他比较喜欢她？ 

最不明白的是 为什么那天后 我整个人好像很焦虑

那种焦虑像是考试前不够时间温习功课的那种感觉

我到底在焦虑什么？ 

我不觉得我比别人不好啊 但是我为什么会有这种感觉？

而且我知道一个只会让你流泪的人本来就不值得留恋 但是为什么还是那么难过

为什么我还要故作潇洒？ 

为什么我不像别的女生还会撒野？ 这样至少发脾气了不是会好过一点吗？ 

但是为什么就是做不出？ 

我有那么好人吗？ 

我不是每次都说我很自私的吗？ 

为什么这次我完全就是别无选择地离去 

而且还要走得那么平静 

是不是因为我觉得我没资格争取？ 

对不起

我并不是我想象中的那么坚强

但是我很努力

而且我相信我会活得更好的

哭多一下子就好了

My own thoughts: The Fault in our stars

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Should have wrote this right after i saw the movie....

it's scary to know that how much one's feeling can change within days...

or that just shows that some things are just not worth wasting time on? 

or it could just mean that some feelings are just not that deep and could be forgotten easily? 

Well, honestly speaking I wasn't feeling like myself the past week or you could say the past month 

I just couldn't watch this movie with anybody at that time and I knew that the only choice is to watch it by myself

my first solo movie since les miserables...

i thought i wouldn't have to do this again but then... life is unpredictable but that is what makes life special right? 

I was swallowed by my emotions and I just couldn't function properly the past few weeks..okay..i seemed normal but then i get carried away by my thoughts too much...way too much 

but I'm pretty sure that now i'm totally fine or at least 90% okay..I hope that i'm not just being delusional LOL 

things just don't always go the way we want to especially relationships 

I could always work hard to keep up my grades, work hard to get my ideal work, internships but then for relationships, it takes two to clap...

if wouldn't work if only one side is willing to work hard for it...

I came to a conclusion that why would i want to waste my time on things that are clearly out of my control and try so hard to secure something that wan't to be free? 

why not I just let myself free and let it go...

if it's meant to be it will be , if it's not , why fight for it and end up wounded? 

I digressed,

yea, the fault in our stars

I've read the book way before the movie came out and TBH i wasn't really deeply connected to the book like most people did...

It didn't leave an impact like how "just one day" did but it was a good read 

The movie used to meant something to me but then I promised myself that after watching it, it would be the end of my grief and this pathetic relationship 

In the movie, gus said that he hoped that hazel love the choice she made to get hurt by whom 

I guess I just haven't meet the right person that i'm willing to get hurt by him 

pain demand to be felt? yes..it does

because at least i'm not hiding from pain, i'm trying to feel it until i get numb then it will then have no effect on me anymore, that's the only way to be free from this agony 

Did I cry? yes I did and i'm not a person that cries in movies but i threw in personal emotions and I just couldn't stop..especially when Hazel was just sitting by her bed staring into space 

I jutted every time they say " okay? Okay. "

I made the right choice to watch this alone as I just couldn't bear to watch it with anybody with my emotions so wrecked but then now I'm okay. 

I'm really Okay. 

Post-exams life

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Finals ended 2 weeks ago...

things happened...

one trip down...2 trips coming =) 

still too many uncertainties in life....

hopefully everything is going according to its directions...*fingers crossed* 

friends told me that i over think too much...like tooooo much...

make things complicated for myself when everything is just as simple as it seems...

well...you can't blame me...

i'm a very insecure person...>< 

I'm trying not to be...but at the moment i still am..and I hope i don't annoy the people around me>< 

our so called grad trip has come and gone...

it was fun hanging out with you guys =) 

got to learn mahjong again...hahahaha 

nvr thought i would play again =P since the last i played was 3 years ago...

yeap...only 2 girls made it to the trip...

perks of being a mech.eng girl LOLL surrounded by guys....hahahahaha 

just a short update...will blog soon =) 

五月天

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五月了

距离FYP submission也一个星期了

好像过后就不断的出去

明明还有考试 我们玩疯了吗？ 

快要毕业了

其实还有小小的遗憾

就是怎么到了这个时候大家才开始熟络起来

有种相见恨晚的感觉

而且毕业后大家也都要各分东西了 所以其实还是有点小难过

快要大学毕业了，我有变得比较勇敢吗？ 

还是我只是在伪装内心的恐惧？ 

如果说其实我已经没事了 只是有点不甘心为什么我当时不提起勇气做多点事情，这合理吗？ 

如果我再勇敢一点，会不会不一样？ 不过一切已成定局 没有必要为了过去的事情而烦恼

就当作上了一堂课 如果再遇见 我会更勇敢一些 

长大了 情绪不要再那么容易被牵动 

不要太过依赖一个人 因为那也许只是一时的鬼遮眼 

对的人回来的 会欣赏我的人会来的

能令我笑 我又能令他笑的人 始终会来的

不要投入无谓的情绪 不要让自己有太多的以为 

人生也不只有感情这件事 还有太多重要的事情等着我去挑战 

也许就在追求梦想的路途中 我就能遇到了

太过强求于事无补 不是你的就不是你的

也许我没有大部分人有的幸运 爱情这块我注定要比别人努力 

也许是我个性的缺陷让我这样 我会努力做一个更好的人 

也许因为夜深了 所以我才会在这里胡思乱想 胡说八道

若干年后 我还会觉得自己写的这些太可笑

也许明天就那样觉得了 谁知道？ 

photo credits to chuan yang

Recently

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counting down to my graduation...

but that also means that deadlines are coming and I'm so not done!! *horror* 

the past few weeks were not particularly exciting or dreadful...

there were ups and downs everyday..which is totally normal as a living person...

went for a musical (The Mikado) produced by UNMC last night to support not only my uni but also my friends =) 

credits to them for producing such quality musical even though it was their first time and last night was their opening show! 

the only downside is that i'd only got home at 2am and I had to wake up at 7am today ...gosh 

nonetheless, proud of u guys! =) 

there will be a little something coming up on my blog =) *hint hint*

really thankful for that opportunity =) it's small but it's a start!   

personally...

there are ups and downs...with my weight LOLLL  

nid to game up if i want to lose'em all !!! 

but i've been so lethargic and unmotivated =( 

must be hormones! LOL *blames* 

will end this post with a pic that describes my current state best- blank 

i look so dead 

2014 New Year Resolutions~!

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it seems like everybody has been posting about their new year resolutions, I shall just follow my old tradition by listing a few to keep the motivation energy up!

i usually write this before the new year but this time i just kept forgetting...

looking back at my last year's resolutions, i would say i did pretty well by achieving most of it =D 

probably because i just gave myself a few....not gonna be overly ambitious and not achieve any by the end of the year...

so this year...

almost the same as last year's 

1. graduate with 1st class =D to waive ptptn 

2. lose more weight+fats (lost more than 20 lbs last year, so this year i hope i could lose another 15+ lbs?) 

3. be more confident ( take away all the negativity) 

4. continue to exercise regularly + eat clean 

5. be a braver person ( just strive for the things/person i want! not snatch la == ) 

I think i should just stop here...not going to list too many =D 

 

一个人

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刚刚在看某个谈话性节目说到单身的生活就突然想写东西。。。

他们说如果一个人习惯一个人做东西就完了。。。

我真的完了吗？ 

我可以一个人看电影，一个人吃饭。。。虽然已经很久没做这些啦。。。

直接留在家算了。。。哈哈

我只差没有一个人去唱K。。。

其实我最想做的是一个人去旅行。。。但是问题出在我妈妈不允许 ＝＝ 

旅伴不容易找，又要配合旅行地点，旅行时间（一个月） ，还有budget。。。

又有多少个人可以真的完完全全配合到恰恰好。。。

嘴巴说很想脱离单身，但是心里其实习惯了一个人

还没学会包容另一个人，还是太以自己为中心点。。。

也许只是还没遇到那个要让我牺牲的那个人。。。

我不想就一直这样习惯下去。。。感觉很危险。。。

我怕我会变得不舍得离开单身。。。不能啊。。。

我怕我会对私人空间的要求越来越贪婪。。。

我也想学会迁就另一个人，爱一个人。。。

一个人有时也很可怜。。。

想到那时在英国的时候，生病到想死的时候，身边没有人，吐到四肢无力还是要自己照顾自己。。。哎。。。

过节。。。

这个就真的已经习惯了。。。。

情人节完全就和普通的一天没分别。。。

好啦。。我牢骚发完了。。。

侃侃而谈

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好像每次都要隔很久才会更新一下部落格。。。

第一，没什么好写

第二，时间不太允许

第三，懒惰 

很想写"All Time Favourite Cosmetic Products"但是需要蛮多时间来拍照＋排版。。。

所以要搁置一下。。。可能考试后才写吧。。。

考试＋FYP＋功课把人搞得头昏脑胀。。。

加上最近也惹到了不必要的麻烦。。。

其实也不算麻烦啦。。。

只是自己有点不知所措。。。加处理不当。。。

很可惜地说，长这么大还真的第一次遇到这种问题。。。＝＝ 

希望这个不会影响到我的心情啦。。。

对于喜欢的人，别人叫我勇敢一些。。。

但是我真的没有多余的勇气。。。

既然就快毕业了。。也许真的应该勇敢一些？ 

就豁出去？ 不知道。。。我真的还没准备好踏出这一步。。。。

我害怕如果真的说白了，万一被拒绝那怎么办？ 

如果连朋友也做不成那怎么办？ 

不过知道的人越来越多了。。。是不是也在说明我在开始建立勇气了？ 

还是其实他已经知道了？ 但是假装不知道？ LOL

我开始在胡思乱想了。。。。

Life In General

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I'm finally back from a long hiatus from blogging! 

I just didn't feel like blogging or just generally didn't feel like doing anything...

coursework is a never ending black hole and it's piling up like nobody's business!!  

with the semester coming to an end...exams coming...datelines are coming...

OMG...i have so much to do!! 

Final year is so not fun...why did I let myself take MEng? LOL 

well...at least I've just handed in a taunting coursework today...

and to celebrate...we've watched Thor II!  

To be honest, I didn't even really watch the first movie..=P 

but no worries...you don't have to watch the first one to understand the second one when you have a bro that gives spoilers of every single movie he watches...LOL 

But it was a good movie undoubtedly...

super hero movies with a slight wittiness in them is just really appealing...credits to Loki a.k.a Tom Hiddleston...

I've finally realized why so many of my friends love him...

he has this really special vibe or aura that makes him irresistible...and chris hemsworth is just chris hemsworth lor...LOL

and Kat Dannings is just hilarious as usual...2 broke girls rocks!  haha

most of all..plot twist at the end! OMG...i was so not expecting that...

the next movie that i really want to watch is the hunger games: catching fire ! 

read all the books almost 2 years ago...the second movie is finally here! can't wait! 

just a short update and some rambling here....i might also be doing a review on a new cheeky cosmetic purchase...maybe...will see =D 

FYP

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after taking a month off from blogging...not on purpose though...

it's because most of these days are filled with uni,gym,fyp etc ==

not much fun stuffs going on..and i rarely blog about outings because i'm just plain lazy XD 

now still waiting for my simulation to end then start another simulation...

OMG...it's taking sooo longgg!!! 

I'm still so lost on my FYP...I really need to gather my brain cells together to work on it if i want to maintain my results =( 

they say studying is easy compared to the working world...but i'm not at that stage yet ma...

to me, studying is the hardest at this point of life...

maybe next year i would be saying working life is worst but that's the future and I have no idea what to expect yet.... 

so just bear with me moaning about how studying life sucks first ok? haha